Goodbye


After 3 years, 11 months and 5 days, I am done writing for The Puck Under the Sun. My twitter has been deactivated. I am going on a hiatus from the site and twitter. This hiatus is meant to be permanent, but knowing myself, it won’t be. I am completely mentally exhausted. When I started, I was a naive foolish 12 year old boy who wanted to spread positivity about the Cats. Over time, through interactions on twitter and hard times for the team, I became a cynical young man. My twitter account transformed from professional to basically an ordinary fan. I began acting unprofessional on the timeline. I tweeted things that I shouldn’t have, because I exercised poor judgement in the moment. The human brain cannot handle the amount of socialization that goes into social media. Humans were never meant to handle this. I adapted, but eventually it has proven to be too much. This recent losing skid has ended all of my enthusiasm for the team. I haven’t been this indifferent since the 2013-14 season. For the first time in probably ever, tonight’s game to me seems like a doomed ultimatum obligation rather than an exciting break from life, which it is meant to be. I have let this team control my mood for too long. I have had whole days ruined (usually in the past) by bad social media interactions. I also don’t want to unfollow or block people that I have cultivated relationships with. I need to take a step back and reevaluate my life. I cannot be going through depressive swings anymore, largely caused by losing. I cannot handle social media. It is really hard to remember people’s specific takes and interests. It’s hard to avoid the political drama. Most of all, it’s the negativity. I do not blame the fanbase at all and I understand your frustrations. I share them with you. This team has been unsuccessful for far too long. The fanbase deserves a right to vent their anger about the team online. I have Aspergers Syndrome. Aspergers is a social disorder, mild form of Autism, which basically means I struggle with communication. “Aspies” tend to obsess over one topic. There are several notable “Aspies”. Time Person of the Year Greta Thunberg is an advocate in fighting climate change. What I think seperates “Aspies” and their interests from other people is that “Aspies” tend to have one specific interest and they usually can’t move away from it. For me that is the Florida Panthers. I have let that interest be a controlling factor in my life for too long. Knowing what to say is extremely hard for me. I’ll cherish the good memories I have of twitter. But I think it’s for the best that I leave. The team has not been successful since I started the site and have gone on social media. I will continue to cheer on the team. I will also be suspending writing on the website, because I’m fresh out of ideas, I’ve torpedoed my own platform and I just don’t have the time or energy to consistently update the site, something that has been occurring for the larger part of 2 1/2 years. If you would like to keep in contact, please fill out the form below.

If you have any thoughts or questions on my decision please comment below. I want to thank Alex Mesa and Alejandro Diaz for their contributions to the site. I want to thank my parents, my friends, my family, my followers and the Florida Panthers Organization for their support. I’d like to thank Lucas from Rats on the Ice, The Puck Bag and everyone else who has helped support this site and bring up traffic. I’d like to thank everyone who has participated in my fantasy leagues, they will continue. I’d like to thank Doug Cifu, Thomas Drance, Doug Plagens, Danny Janicas, Ray Haluska and many others for the opportunities they offered me to grow my site. Thank you all for reading my site and Let’s Go Panthers!

 

 

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